Why...

Why is it that I want what I can't have and when I get what I need it scares me to death?

This is the huge question.

And this is what I ponder lately. I plead the fifth, but I have a strong feeling that if you have followed this blog, you know exactly what's been happening in my life. This is something I am determined to figure out.

And I'm still smiling!

She's alive

Ok...the last 6 weeks have been a whirlwind.
I started my new job...which I love and I will post a huge blog about this.
I got a new car...which is scary. Very very adult thing to do including the payments.
Got hooked on Big Brother 6 - oh I know that is so sad, but the Soverign 6 RULES! I love people holed up in a house for weeks. A great study in human relations and psychology. A cheap excuse to watch reality tv but it is a good show. This season was wild.
Started the play for the Highschool...a musical and these kids are gonna be good! It's set in the 20's and the Flapper era.
Faced some fears and learned some harsh realities.
I'm still a sucker for romance and well... in the words of Emily Sailers:

And I offer her insight to battle love's blindness

Strength from the milk of human kindness

A safe place for all the pieces that scatter
Learn to pretend there's more than love that matters

I still have this lesson to learn. And lately...I'm wondering if I will ever learn it. But being the blind idealist that I am, I have hope.

Ok. Talk to all later.
I'm fine...really I'm fine. It's just been an adjustment to my new life, but I love it.